Rosslyn Chapel

[scarletharlot]

The Templar dynamic I encountered, and which later manifested itself to me in the literal figure of a fourteenth-century knight was oddly presaged in a dream I had some months before I was instructed to join "a group that would approach me" i.e. the OTO. This was about late 1997.

The dream started out with me seated atop a dais-type platform, rather like a Hindu guru, and administering some sort of spiritual lecture to young girls.

I became aware of a shadow zone forming to my right, and out of this shadow zone emerged a black knight, looming over me like Darth Vader, and taking hold of me by the upper arm.

So vivid was the dream I can to this day recall the feeling of that grip of his; that black gauntlet easily encircling my upper arm and closing round it in the most inexorable manner possible.

I did not move, or flinch or in any way get upset at this. I maintained my calm, and regarded him with calm, waiting to see what he wanted.

He spoke after a long moment, as if he had been waiting to see how I would respond to this odd approach. He spoke:

"I am ready to learn the secret knowledge"

When the response arose in me, it was spoken as though someone else was speaking through me. It was what "possession" feels like, (but in a good way!).

I knew it was the archetypal force of the Black Isis of Rosslyn that was speaking"through me" to this curious dream manifestation of the archetype of Pluto; I will remark that, astrologically speaking, I was undergoing at this time a very powerful transit of Pluto over the "Dragon's Head" and simultaneously over my MC/IC axis.

The response came from my mouth with calm certainty: "The secret knowledge cannot be taught; it can only be awakened".

So startled was I at this "assumption of the God-Form" that I woke myself up abruptly-and realized a moment later that I could not able to recall the words that had just been spoken in that dream; the memory of this remarkable verbal exchange had begun to fade from memory as dream memories do (unless they are consciously recalled and committed to memory as an act of will).

So, I actually deliberately allowed myself to doze off again and felt how the memory of the words spoken in dream began to return as I crossed back over the threshold of sleep. ( for just a few minutes; it was time to get up for the day, anyway) .

I was able to recover the memory of what I had said so that I could recall the moment in active meditation later on, and continue the conversation....

Later that night I did so. I re-assumed my sleep position, and began to meditate on the dream, recalling every detail I could. I could feel myself seated crosslegged on the dais, with the young girl looking up at me, but most of all I remember how engrossed I was in what I was talking about, (and it was about God and spiritual things) so I was in an exalted state of mind when the darkness formed to my right and that terrifying dark shape materialized out of it once again and took hold of my arm with that steely inexorable grip, and staring at me with that opaque steely gaze.

"I am ready to be taught the secret knowledge"

I felt that curious "rising on the Planes" sensation when the Deity-form of the Black Isis took hold of my awareness just as I had that morning. I turned my dream gaze upon the archetypal form before me and "She" responded to the knight's statement , with my tongue as Her vehicle: " The Secret Knowledge cannot be taught; it can only be awakened..."-

...and at those words, the Black Knight stepped back from me, took hold of the folds of his black surcote/robe and tore them open.

"Then AWAKEN ME!"


The gesture revealed, however, a dazzling white brilliance, as though an angel were hidden behind those robes...

... but an angel who had been shot; there was a brilliant flash of red on his breast.


...so dazzled was I by this whiteness after the darkness and shadows that I could not see the image of the Knight clearly any longer, and I was, in any case, attuned to what he was saying, lest I lose it again, and not to his appearance or to his gestures. it was here that the active meditation came to an end.


I had at first dazzled glance assumed the red on the white robe was some sort of wound, but I quickly realized it was insignia of some kind from its regularity of form. As events unfolded and pictures were laid before me in books, I realized that the red blaze on the Black-turned-White Knight's breast was a "cross pattee" (footed cross of the Knights Templar)

[Sammy]

Amazing dream scenes. I wonder, not awakening the knight when asked. Did you pass his test or no?

Its wierd but this sounds earily like my spirit self. Who is usualy in parts unknown, or places not safe for most. I have no clarity like you "which ive been told is because I would not want to see most of what I face due to its horrible nature", I mostly get meanings or events to settle on equal ground. The thought rather then the sight.

Since my initial contact with spirit I have had my truth in question "as trust must be gained not just given". Whenever spirit was in question of my motive they would open my outer clothing "not sure what it looks like", to reveal something over my heart. While they are looking at it im forced to repeat the words, and they see my truth in it. I only know what it does as i mentioned, I have never seen its designs so thank you for sharing.

Another wierd simularity is that, I have also not been given notice when making a very important point. To show my fervor the heart thing is shown and I open my outer clothing with a flood of light and truth. So they will have to see I speak the truth and mean it.

I have also read a dream of a friend online who had the same type of experience as you, except the black knight was on a horse. Even to include the "awakening" part. During my reading it kept triggering memories of dreams and thoughts ive had. One noticable difference from yours was he noticed a dragon design on the knights armor. As I've mentioned a black dragon is one of my spirit animals. The reason this dream stood out to me was because I was usualy riding the dragon, and it was still the dragon but my consciousness was confused on how it was turned into a horse.

[Sammy]

Reflecting on all this I realized something. I dont know what my outer clothing looks like but not from lack of trying. When I had long ago purged for its look, it looked to me like a nights sky filled with stars and kind of robe like. They didnt look like clothes, more like a outlined hole to space. Thinking about it now, a black cloth with a bright light from under the weaves of fabric would resemble a stary night.

[scarletharlot]

May 1, 2012 6:17:17 GMT -8 Sammy said:

Amazing dream scenes. I wonder, not awakening the knight when asked. Did you pass his test or no?

The impression I had of the exchange, is that he was coming to "me" (the "yogini" as 'teacher") and was telling me it was time for something dark, previously hidden, and shadowy to "evolve", and that I was to be the one that the Black Knight was to "learn' from. It was not so much a 'testing" but was presented to me as though it was a "task" expected of me, due to the Grade I had achieved (as was the assumption of the Grail Priestess" role in the establishment of that "reincarnated Knights Templar" group) I would have to say it was more in the nature of an 'assignment". Of course, it may well have been some sort of 'test", but the idea of "a task assigned to me' was the impression I received.

I had already been doing many meditations on the esoteric significance of the "Knight" and the "Lady", and I recall the "Knight"archetype was already making its presence known in my life; I was completely astounded at how very "literal" the manifestation of the dynamic came to be!

Its wierd but this sounds earily like my spirit self. Who is usualy in parts unknown, or places not safe for most. I have no clarity like you "which ive been told is because I would not want to see most of what I face due to its horrible nature", I mostly get meanings or events to settle on equal ground. The thought rather then the sight. Actually, the less you can "see" and the more you have to rely on your intuition, the higher the Plane you are on!

The Astral Plane is a mosr deceptive realm , and on a "low" level (below the veil of Paroketh, which divides the diagram of the Tree of Life into the "Lower Astral" and the "Higher Astral", up to "the Abyss", which is another realm entirely.

The higher you rise on the Planes, the LESS there is to "see"! This is because the higher Planes do not rely on "images", but on much more subtle forms of communication. Also, the fact of not being 'allowed" to see certain things is not really so much because they are "horrible" (although that might well be the case), but because the sight of them might literally "unhinge" your mind!

Your Guardian Angel is keeping you safe, by blocking off things from your inner vision that "you cannot look upon and live" i.e. you cannot look upon them and still retain your "normal human mind" I have had this experience: I was told "don't turn around too suddenly" and I know it was because I was not 'ready" to see what was there, and it would be 'bad' for me if I did see it! I was doing inner work that, strictly speaking, needed a "guru" for guidance; since there weren't any gurus available for the knowledge I wanted, I had to work 'solo"; I was very lucky that I had the "spiritual protection" of the Black Virgin, else I might have ended up in a mental ward for the rest of my life! Even so, I am not now the person I was, and there are things that I was capable of before, that I am uncertain I have the capacity for now!

Sammy, I am thinking you may want to consider taking the Three degrees of Blue Lodge Freemasonry if you want to "make further progress", and here's why:

One of the main reasons I agreed to join OTO (which of course turned out to be connected with Freemasonry) was that I received the distinct impression that it was necessary that I receive an 'official' initiation into an earthly Lodge in order to progress further into the Qabalistic Mysteries; without it I would have been literally at a "dead end", and gone no further.

You may, upon gaining your Third Degree, find "inner doors" opening to you that were closed to you previously! So, you might want to do some kind of meditation to affirm if this route would be a good idea for you! Part of why things are being "hidden' from you may also be because you have not the necessary initiations for you to be permitted to 'see" them!

Since my initial contact with spirit I have had my truth in question "as trust must be gained not just given". Whenever spirit was in question of my motive they would open my outer clothing "not sure what it looks like", to reveal something over my heart. While they are looking at it im forced to repeat the words, and they see my truth in it. I only know what it does as i mentioned, I have never seen its designs so thank you for sharing. That is very interesting! Than YOU for sharing!

Another wierd simularity is that, I have also not been given notice when making a very important point. To show my fervor the heart thing is shown and I open my outer clothing with a flood of light and truth. So they will have to see I speak the truth and mean it.

I have also read a dream of a friend online who had the same type of experience as you, except the black knight was on a horse. Even to include the "awakening" part. During my reading it kept triggering memories of dreams and thoughts ive had. One noticable difference from yours was he noticed a dragon design on the knights armor. As I've mentioned a black dragon is one of my spirit animals. The reason this dream stood out to me was because I was usualy riding the dragon, and it was still the dragon but my consciousness was confused on how it was turned into a horse. Well, in China there is in fact a type of dragon that is partly a horse!

I have already told you that the dragon has had great significance for me for as far back as I can remember. The Chinese dragon, not the Western one. And, for me, it is the RED dragon that is significant!

Here is a strange-but-true story: I have a "banalinga": a perfectly symmetrical gray-to beige oval stone of a type that is considered supremely sacred ("not shaped by human hands") , and these stones come in all sizes, from little one-inchers to three-footers, and are found only at one particular bend of the holy Narmada River in India.

The red-splotched ones are considered to be "complete"; that is to say, they contain both Shiva (Divine Masculine)and Shakti (Divine Feminine) together, and thus do not need to be placed in a "yoni" base (representing the Divine Feminine aspect) for worship; they are holy just as they are. Those that do not have the red splotches are called "eggs of Brahma" and are worshipped as "Shiva lingams" only with the use of a separate "yoni' base.

This particular banalinga of mine is about 9 inches long and has a large yellowish splotch that contains another red splotch about 4 inches long, that looks EXACTLY like a red dragon soaring over a mountain! Furthermore, the form of that red splotch was not initially discernable as a dragon, but has "emerged" over the years, and this phenomenon commenced when I received my Scarlet Woman initiation from that "Red Dragon' lama ("Lama Yeshe" ) who was also the grandson of Aleister Crowley!

I remember quite clearly examining the linga when I first got it (1996) for special significant marks, and if there had been a 'dragon-shaped' mark on it as clear as it is now, I would certainly have noticed it! It was actually a friend (also a Shiva devotee) who spotted it first; this was about 3 or 4 months after the Scarlet Woman initiation. He was looking at the linga, and he pointed it out to me...since then it has become ever more distinct!

I will remark that I had brought the linga with me to Starwood Festival (where I received that initiation) and I left it with Lama Yeshe in his tent overnight.I could tell you other odd stories of how this linga has actually displayed "conscious behaviour", but I will save it for amother time!

[Sammy]

I have had much back and forthe with joining a lodge. I think I would benefit but not sure sure I would fit, althought this is probably my insecurities speaking up. Its just most I connected with were European. I dunno, if I was asked id be more inclined. Mostly im just doing what comes my way as best I can, and let it lead me down my lifes path.

Very cool rock! You have done quite a bit in your time, and with quite the charecters.

In pertaining to the knight, I had moments when backup would showup. Like we were a brotherhood of knights, we have not drawn sword though. Most back off at our presence. I wonder if there is much difference in how we look, or if its a certain look taken by spirits (live or dead) for protecting innocents. I have also had myself show through as my normal self and no additional power beyond that. Somtimes even as an animal HAHA.

For the higher planes, I left the planes. I have no intentions of being competitive, and most see it as a game to win. I see the entire realm within a single image, when a point comes up that needs help or is in trouble I go to it. Its like a skip, im in one place then the next beat im in the other. I also just like the calmness of space, its relaxing to me.

I also think your right about being blocked, I know for a fact one time would have undone me for good. My angels have been kept busy my whole life HAHA. I shoulda died a million times by now, and I wasnt even a planned birth. Me and my sister are a year and a half apart exactly (im aug 19, she is jan 19) so they already had a new baby. My parents had no intentions of having another child, or atleast was in the back of thier minds. My older sister had heard the Bible story when God gave a baren woman a son. My mom came around the corner to the kitchen and saw her on the floor praying. After she was done she came up to mom and said, "God is going to give me a baby brother and his name is Samuel". My mom laughed and said awwwe isnt that sweet, and didnt think of it again untill she started getting morning sickness a couple weeks later.

[Sammy]

I guess I cant say Ive left the plains, but I refuse to play along untill people stop taking it so seriousely. A game is a game no matter how big it was made into. Once things are settled Ill find comfort in "home" and ill play games for fun. Too much to do untill then.

[Sammy]

speaking of red dragons, I found this pic and instantly thought it would make a good avatar for ya.



here is the HTML if you want to use it. i73.photobucket.com/albums/i227/drakaria/reddragon.jpg

[scarletharlot]

May 1, 2012 18:37:16 GMT -8 Sammy said:

I have had much back and forthe with joining a lodge. I think I would benefit but not sure sure I would fit, althought this is probably my insecurities speaking up. Its just most I connected with were European. I dunno, if I was asked id be more inclined. Mostly im just doing what comes my way as best I can, and let it lead me down my lifes path.It actually has very little to do with the social aspect but more with the fact of having the MM initiation under your belt. All you need is that Third Degree. It does not matter if the Lodge is European or American; the point of the exercise is undergoing a Freemasonic Blue Lodge initiation ceremony to become a "Master Mason". I will pass on to you the Masonic mudra I was taught; that will invoke the necessary dynamic that will let you know, in unmistakable terms, when it is time for you to become a Freemason.


The last person I passed it on to was the Magister Templi.

Very cool rock! You have done quite a bit in your time, and with quite the charecters.

In pertaining to the knight, I had moments when backup would showup. Like we were a brotherhood of knights, we have not drawn sword though. Most back off at our presence. I wonder if there is much difference in how we look, or if its a certain look taken by spirits (live or dead) for protecting innocents. I have also had myself show through as my normal self and no additional power beyond that. Somtimes even as an animal HAHA. yes, I found that feeling came to me as well. In fact, I will say that the better part of the "work' I have undertaken on-line, regarding "that actress" has to do with such a brotherhood.

For the higher planes, I left the planes. I have no intentions of being competitive, and most see it as a game to win. There is no 'competition" about it and noting to 'win"; but if you are not seeing things in terms of distinct interactive images such as are seen in dreams, but "apprehend by means of intuition", then you are on the Qabalistinc plane of Briah", the "Archangelic" realm.


I see the entire realm within a single image, when a point comes up that needs help or is in trouble I go to it. Its like a skip, im in one place then the next beat im in the other. I also just like the calmness of space, its relaxing to me. Yes, that would be so; when one has risen to that plane you are "out in space". Dion Fortune described it so perfectly in "Moon Magick"


I also think your right about being blocked, I know for a fact one time would have undone me for good. My angels have been kept busy my whole life HAHA. I shoulda died a million times by now, and I wasnt even a planned birth. Me and my sister are a year and a half apart exactly (im aug 19, she is jan 19) so they already had a new baby. My parents had no intentions of having another child, or atleast was in the back of thier minds. My older sister had heard the Bible story when God gave a baren woman a son. My mom came around the corner to the kitchen and saw her on the floor praying. After she was done she came up to mom and said, "God is going to give me a baby brother and his name is Samuel". My mom laughed and said awwwe isnt that sweet, and didnt think of it again untill she started getting morning sickness a couple weeks later.

Now that IS weird; how would a year and a half old kid know what means 'barren woman"?, (they don't even know what sex is at that age) much less the concept of "prayer"? Much less be doing it to attain "a baby brother"!

! At a year and a half a kid isn't even "housebroken" yet!

[scarletharlot]

I can tell you that the young daughter of a friend's brother spotted a picture of "Babaji" ( the famous Indian mystic guru) at her place and started pointing and shrieking his name: "BABAJI! BABAJI! BABAJI!" . She was three years old at the time and had never seen his picture before in her life. But there it was...

[Sammy]

May 1, 2012 20:57:59 GMT -8 scarletharlot said:

May 1, 2012 18:37:16 GMT -8 Sammy said:

I have had much back and forthe with joining a lodge. I think I would benefit but not sure sure I would fit, althought this is probably my insecurities speaking up. Its just most I connected with were European. I dunno, if I was asked id be more inclined. Mostly im just doing what comes my way as best I can, and let it lead me down my lifes path.It actually has very little to do with the social aspect but more with the fact of having the MM initiation under your belt. All you need is that Third Degree. It does not matter if the Lodge is European or American; the point of the exercise is undergoing a Freemasonic Blue Lodge initiation ceremony to become a "Master Mason". I will pass on to you the Masonic mudra I was taught; that will invoke the necessary dynamic that will let you know, in unmistakable terms, when it is time for you to become a Freemason.


The last person I passed it on to was the Magister Templi.

Very cool rock! You have done quite a bit in your time, and with quite the charecters.

In pertaining to the knight, I had moments when backup would showup. Like we were a brotherhood of knights, we have not drawn sword though. Most back off at our presence. I wonder if there is much difference in how we look, or if its a certain look taken by spirits (live or dead) for protecting innocents. I have also had myself show through as my normal self and no additional power beyond that. Somtimes even as an animal HAHA. yes, I found that feeling came to me as well. In fact, I will say that the better part of the "work' I have undertaken on-line, regarding "that actress" has to do with such a brotherhood.

For the higher planes, I left the planes. I have no intentions of being competitive, and most see it as a game to win. There is no 'competition" about it and noting to 'win"; but if you are not seeing things in terms of distinct interactive images such as are seen in dreams, but "apprehend by means of intuition", then you are on the Qabalistinc plane of Briah", the "Archangelic" realm.


I see the entire realm within a single image, when a point comes up that needs help or is in trouble I go to it. Its like a skip, im in one place then the next beat im in the other. I also just like the calmness of space, its relaxing to me. Yes, that would be so; when one has risen to that plane you are "out in space". Dion Fortune described it so perfectly in "Moon Magick"


I also think your right about being blocked, I know for a fact one time would have undone me for good. My angels have been kept busy my whole life HAHA. I shoulda died a million times by now, and I wasnt even a planned birth. Me and my sister are a year and a half apart exactly (im aug 19, she is jan 19) so they already had a new baby. My parents had no intentions of having another child, or atleast was in the back of thier minds. My older sister had heard the Bible story when God gave a baren woman a son. My mom came around the corner to the kitchen and saw her on the floor praying. After she was done she came up to mom and said, "God is going to give me a baby brother and his name is Samuel". My mom laughed and said awwwe isnt that sweet, and didnt think of it again untill she started getting morning sickness a couple weeks later.

Now that IS weird; how would a year and a half old kid know what means 'barren woman"?, (they don't even know what sex is at that age) much less the concept of "prayer"? Much less be doing it to attain "a baby brother"!

! At a year and a half a kid isn't even "housebroken" yet!

HAHA no my oldest sister was praying, she is 4 years older then me. Shannon at the time would have been 11 monthes old when this happened (I have 3 older sisters) might of helped mentioning that HAHA sorry for confusion.

[Sammy]

I do recall when I whent to Mexico to build houses, there was a girl about 4 or 5 who had the entire old testiment memorized. None of us could believe our eyes.

[scarletharlot]

May 2, 2012 4:51:39 GMT -8 Sammy said:

May 1, 2012 20:57:59 GMT -8 scarletharlot said:

Now that IS weird; how would a year and a half old kid know what means 'barren woman"?, (they don't even know what sex is at that age) much less the concept of "prayer"? Much less be doing it to attain "a baby brother"!

! At a year and a half a kid isn't even "housebroken" yet!

HAHA no my oldest sister was praying, she is 4 years older then me. Shannon at the time would have been 11 monthes old when this happened (I have 3 older sisters) might of helped mentioning that HAHA sorry for confusion.

Whew, thanks for clearing that up! But it is still a remarkable story as it stands! She would have been closer to three than to four when she sent out her prayer, and the fact that she would even understand the implications of "prayer" and "Deity" and "brotherhood" at such a tender age would indicate a high degree of spiritual evolution on her part.

[scarletharlot]

Just before I joined the OTO, I had a remarkable experience of "astral warfare" as it is fought between Tantric Buddhist sects. It was my divulging the details of these astral battles to someone I knew to be involved in "the occult"sponsor which decided him to offer his services as my sponsor.

A frien and former coven member had taken up Tantric Buddhism since I has seen her last (about ten years previously)and had only recently been booted for insubordination by her guru from said Tantric Buddhist group. I was her outspoken defender (I subsequently wrote the guru a letter that tore a strip out of him six feet wide and shocked and horrified his disciples.) -and in gratitude she had offered to teach me the way to perform a Hindu religious ritual known as 'Shiva puja".

The Buddhist Tantrics got wind of this development and became convinced that she was revealing all manner of inner high-level Tantric secrets to me and so launched a campaign of gradually escalating astral harassment and intimidation.

I finally caught on to what was happening when I realized I was being menaced in my dreams by Buddhist monks. I have no reason to think of such things, so when they started to appear I realized I was engaged in an "astral conflict"

However, doing the "Shiva puja" paid spiritual dividends; the monks were completely and irrevocably routed by the appearance of the Shiva Lingam, which popped up before me in the form of a great white pillar the size of a fencepost, and marked with the "tripundra" a feature characteristic of Lord Shiva, at a moment whan I thought she and I were about to be annilhilated...

After that there was one more "monk" dream, in a manner that was unmistakably conciliatory, and the harassment came to an end.

I recounted these curious events to this person, whom I had known for many years. Almost on the spot he revealed himself as of the OTO and would I like him to sponsor me for initiation?

What he didn't knowm, of course, was that I had been warned in advance that I was going to be approached by an organization such as he was espousing, and when he said his piece, I was ready for it. The funny thing is, is that it was I who was already in touch with the "Deity" was destined to shatter that organization from within; once I attained the Scarlet Woman degree, the earthly Lodge lost its mandate and it quickly crumbled under the weight of its accumulated karma.

[Sammy]

Whew, thanks for clearing that up! But it is still a remarkable story as it stands! She would have been closer to three than to four when she sent out her prayer, and the fact that she would even understand the implications of "prayer" and "Deity" and "brotherhood" at such a tender age would indicate a high degree of spiritual evolution on her part.

Ya its perty crazy, and ya she is deffinitely strong in spirit. I agree at that age its alot to go down, which is mostly why my mom just laughed. Since she didnt even know how babies came about. My parents were youth group leaders though, and we had gone to church every sunday since we were born.

Just before I joined the OTO, I had a remarkable experience of "astral warfare" as it is fought between Tantric Buddhist sects. It was my divulging the details of these astral battles to someone I knew to be involved in "the occult"sponsor which decided him to offer his services as my sponsor.

A frien and former coven member had taken up Tantric Buddhism since I has seen her last (about ten years previously)and had only recently been booted for insubordination by her guru from said Tantric Buddhist group. I was her outspoken defender (I subsequently wrote the guru a letter that tore a strip out of him six feet wide and shocked and horrified his disciples.) -and in gratitude she had offered to teach me the way to perform a Hindu religious ritual known as 'Shiva puja".

The Buddhist Tantrics got wind of this development and became convinced that she was revealing all manner of inner high-level Tantric secrets to me and so launched a campaign of gradually escalating astral harassment and intimidation.

I finally caught on to what was happening when I realized I was being menaced in my dreams by Buddhist monks. I have no reason to think of such things, so when they started to appear I realized I was engaged in an "astral conflict"

However, doing the "Shiva puja" paid spiritual dividends; the monks were completely and irrevocably routed by the appearance of the Shiva Lingam, which popped up before me in the form of a great white pillar the size of a fencepost, and marked with the "tripundra" a feature characteristic of Lord Shiva, at a moment whan I thought she and I were about to be annilhilated...

After that there was one more "monk" dream, in a manner that was unmistakably conciliatory, and the harassment came to an end.

I recounted these curious events to this person, whom I had known for many years. Almost on the spot he revealed himself as of the OTO and would I like him to sponsor me for initiation?

What he didn't knowm, of course, was that I had been warned in advance that I was going to be approached by an organization such as he was espousing, and when he said his piece, I was ready for it. The funny thing is, is that it was I who was already in touch with the "Deity" was destined to shatter that organization from within; once I attained the Scarlet Woman degree, the earthly Lodge lost its mandate and it quickly crumbled under the weight of its accumulated karma.

Damn you MUST of stirred the pot getting monks to come after you HAHA. Like you said, we all get whats commin.

[scarletharlot]

It is a curious fact that I have always displayed an aptitude for ritual; I once performed the "Star Sapphire" ritual with a fellow Thelemite in front of the whole Lodge and even wrote an invocation to the Women Saints of Thelema (in a counterblast to Crowley's phallus-obsessed invocation) and actually got the Lodge to perform a Gnostic Mass that included it.


I noticed after that , that everything started to 'go haywire"; absolutely everyone in the Lodge experienced disruption in their personal lives. I was already in the throes of personal disruption, but this current that was crumbling my life was to bring me and the Doctor together...if I had to say, it became a time when reality came to live with everyone in the Lodge, even me! But 'reality" is a relative term...

Looking back on it, I see how it was the means for Destiny to get me together with a "Knight of Rosslyn" i.e. an initiate of the Saturniam Mysteries: if I had not been "cast down' I would never have gotten together with him!

Thus my "misfortune" was transformed into fortune, and the writ of destiny carried out; in 1998 I was advised by a being claiming to be "the Archangel Michael" to the effect that if I wanted further Light on the Tree I was rapidly reaching the stage where I would have to accept the initiation of an organized Lodge.

But against that, he told me how to circumvent the terms of the oath.

I had not ever wanted to join the OTO; its unsavoury reputation preceded it. Plus,many women have lost their sanity due to psychic abuse by the adepts of OTO. I am a woman, ergo, I will likely be the target of abuse. Thus I did not wish to take the oath of so unsavoury an organization.

When the AM first spoke to me and gave his credentials, I told him I must test him with a question; if I found the answer satisfactory I would accept his assurances that he was who he claimed to be. The question I asked was "What can you tell me about the 36 Righteous Men?

Since AM is the "Angel" of Tiphareth, it would be a piece of cake for him to answer this question, since the number 36 pertains closely to this sphere.

I in fact did receive the answer, and thus I knew he was the genuine article.

Since Michael is also the Archangel of the Sephirah Hod on the Tree of Life, he is qualified to give advice on how to circumvent oaths, since Hermes/Mercury, the planetary power of Hod, has dominion over oaths. Since my objection to taking the oath was based on legitimate reasons, and not to any desire to be allowed free reign to cause havoc in the invisible planes for selfish purposes, I was permitted the information that would give me access to the Lodge and its Mysteries, while leaving me free to act in any way I saw fit.. the "word of sin", after all, " is restriction"!